Author: shivam

  • An ode to head-loads

    My head- load is increasing
    Ammalu, please stop teasing.

    You weren’t a pumpkin as now
    When I first carried you on my head,
    You were a ripe plantain peel
    Shot at me by your mom,
    Expecting you to pull my legs
    Wisely placing you on my head
    I handled you like a kid;
    Now you handle me like a kite!

    Then I carried your mom on my shoulder
    The heavy -weight boulder
    She pressed and changed my head shape
    I too pressed back,
    Poor thing had no escape!

    Then I carried my children and grand children!
    Happily as my dad used to.
    The music from the anklets
    When their tiny legs kicked my chest
    Flows in my soul still
    Continue ever it will.

    My dad too would have had that thrill
    While crossing the river,
    Me on his shoulder,
    To watch the chariots rolling.
    Knee -deep and hip- deep was the water
    My water -chariot waded out to the shore.
    No push, no pull
    When love is full.

    Comes to mind alive
    Not the shining gods ,
    Not their dazzling chariots
    But the street vendors
    With half opened bags of puffed rice
    Pushcart loads of halva and dates.

    Comes to mind alive
    Not the big drums or long pipes
    But the tickling sound of little toys
    Some rolled on the ground
    Some creaked when moved.
    And the little paper fans
    In the hand of the street vendor
    Turned and turned, I laughed.

    I’m now crossing a river
    Like my dad, with a head load.
    My affection carries the weight
    Not my head, so it is light.

    Help me to wade and reach the shore
    God, who lifted the earth, as a wild bore!

  • Chakka Pazham enikkishtam

    Chakka Pazham enikkishtam
    Can’t eat much, bahu kashtam!

    She gave me just one chola
    I looked her swarna vala

    Chola I liked, vala I liked
    ‘Not both’, she said, ‘take this’

    I ate chola and touched her hand
    I got 10 for chola + bonus for gentle touch 20 = 30 points.

    She gave a knock on my head with the vala hand
    Another 20 points. Total 50 points
    Her knock with vala hand
    Produced instant hairs on my barren hand
    Another 50 points. Total 100 points

    Chakka Pazham enikkishtam
    Vala kai chottu no kashtam

  • Our house is living

    Back home, my own sweet home,
    But what a mess, all things amiss.
    The mess will go in no time
    Thank god, not the memories.

    Many a time, I painted the walls,
    Everyday, I wash the floor
    Glad not gone my kids’ palm prints
    And their mom’s food prints.

    Is therein’t a little one, look, behind a doll
    Showing her face and smiling
    Like the dew on a morning flower?

    If my kids are no more kids
    How do I see them playing here,
    Like spinning tops, all around
    Or spreading moonlight on my lap?

    If not at home their mother
    How did she open the door?
    And move behind the curtain
    She did, I’m certain
    Like a tiny star, behind clouds

    Festivals we had, failures too
    Rising we did, sliding too
    This house witnessed all the drama
    But we were never in a comma
    We lived in this house
    And our house is living.

  • Musings under a tree

    Sitting leisurely under a tree is a luxury, that
    I miss in USA. Even at Hyderabad there are a few places on the roadside where you can sit under a tree and relax. In many village corners trees with bases welcomes you not only for an evening chit chat but also as bus stops and also for gramakoottam or village gatherings. In the Olden days tree bases served as education and medication centers.
    Serious discussions used to take place, disputes used to be settled and financial transactions finalsed under the tree bases. Even now the village panchayats are conducted under the trees.

    Gautama Budha was famously seated under a pipal tree—now known as the Bodhi tree—in Bodh Gaya, India, when he vowed never to arise until he had found the truth. Bodh Gaya now is a religious site and place of pilgrimage associated with the Mahabodhi Temple Complex in Gaya district in Bihar. It is famous as it is the place where Gautama Buddha is said to have obtained Enlightenment.

    The Dakshinamurty ashtakam composed by Adi Shankara is a treasure house of advaitha thathwams and scholars have written volumes about its lyrical beauty and philosophical contents.

    चित्रं वटतरोर्मूले वृद्धाः शिष्या गुरुर्युवा ।
    गुरोस्तु मौनं व्याख्यानं शिष्यास्तुच्छिन्नसंशयाः ॥३॥
    Citram Vatta-Taror-Muule Vrddhaah Shissyaa Gurur-Yuvaa |
    Guros-Tu Maunam Vyaakhyaanam Shissyaas-Tuc-Chinna-Samshayaah ||3||

    Meaning:

    It is indeed a strange picture to behold; At the root (i.e. base) of a Banyan Tree are seated aged Disciples in front of an Young Guru.

    The Guru is Silent, and Silence is His exposition (of the Highest Knowledge); and that (Silence) is severing the doubts (automatically) from the minds of the Disciples.
    We can see sculptors of Dakshinamoorthy seated under the banyan tree along with
    disciples , on the walls of many temples.

    Like mountains and rivers big trees like peepul, Bilwa etc were revered by our elders and that practice still continues. A small statue of Ganesha under the tree converts it to a shrine.

    In the file picture below, I was with my sister, under the tree opposite to Hemambhika Temple, Kallaikulangara, during our visit last year. I have an emotional attachment with that tree, as I have seen many Kathakali programs under that tree, lead by my father when I was a child.

    While sitting there, I imagined several colorful Kathakali characters like Dussana, Nala and Bheemasena were passing before me and I was also hearing sounds of Maddalam and chengala and the songs too! If my sister were not with me, I would have got up and moved my eyes and hands and legs in preparation to imitate an actor. She is, unlike me, a down to earth woman, and would have never tolerated my expressions of emotions which for her are nothing but ‘ nonsense’

  • A silly twist

    Oh, man! A silly twist in my knee muscle
    Twisted and turned my life into a tussle
    Till now, at the sight of a beauty I used to whistle
    Sorry, no more, let me face the body’s wrestle!

    The moment my right leg touches the ground
    A flash of lightning, in the brain goes around
    And I need Megh’s help even to board the car
    Is this the bugle sound of beginning of a war?

    Beware of the twists and turns of life
    A sudden flash, may spark the mood of your wife
    ‘While going to bed she was the sound of a piano’
    Says a guy, ‘and early morning a volcano!’

    ‘Aru, manamae, aru’, means Wait, my mind, wait
    Let me first straighten my knee twist
    Before probing how my friend’s moonlight
    Turned into wildfire , overnight.

  • From a corner of my heart

    Cornering the Kampala diplomat
    In a corner? No,I see her with him!
    Only a wife can do that-
    Cornering and honoring!

    To four corners of the earth
    With him, she moves
    And the soft corner they have for each other
    Has helped them to turn the corner
    Not once.
    She never put him in a tight corner
    Nor he tried to cut corners
    In his relationship or duties.

    Out of the corner of my eyes
    I see him inching towards her.
    ‘Will pinch, if you move an inch,’ I howl
    Can’t love birds can easily fool an old owl?

  • Your mom is a goddess

    Ammalu, when a dog or a cat accidentally rub its body on our gate, I get scared, fearing that it is your mom’

    ‘My Mother is now inside our kitchen. She came in when you went out. She will stay here for another week. So, stay scare-free’

    ‘Ammalu, have the basic knowledge that dog is none other than the divine Bhairavar.
    Cat? Mahaganapathi’s Mount, another divine manifestation’

    ‘Mahaganapathi’s mount is a mouse and not cat’

    ‘That was before your mom was born. She swallowed the mouse and took over its place’

    ‘Could be. I’m no one to contradict your knowledge in Puranas. Anyway, look ahead. The cat is coming out of kitchen with a hot cup of coffee for you’

    ‘Calling your mom a cat? She is a lioness! Durga Devi ‘s divine mount ‘

    ‘I see in her hand a bowl with onion pakora for you’

    ‘Ammalu, your mom is Durga Devi and not her mount. Fall at her feet’

  • Again and again chatting

    ‘Ammalu, why this chit on my table? It reads:
    ‘If you’re pregnant or doubt you may be, please don’t enter
    the X-ray room without the permission of the technician in charge’

    ‘While coming out of the hospital this morning, the girl who took your knee X-ray, asked me to hand over the chit to you and said: Your husband said that he would come again and again to chat with me’

    ‘But I’m not pregnant and not likely to be in the near future too’

    ‘I know. She too knows. That is why she took only your knee X-Ray. She is over cautious, perhaps’

  • Triple talaq

    ‘Ammalu, you’re totally mistaken if you consider me a good-for-nothing husband saying, ‘yes, yes’ for everything you say’

    ‘No, never’

    ‘Yes, you do. This is a challenge- anytime in my life, if I say, ‘yes, yes, yes’ to your idiotic commands, messages , talks, pleadings, begging, you can say Triple talaq and send me out’

    ‘Sure?’

    ‘Sure’

    ‘Promise?’

    ‘Promise’

    ‘Ok. For your dinner, shall I make masala dosai?’

    ‘Yes’

    ‘With coconut chutney?’

    ‘Yes’

    ‘And tomato sambar?’

    ‘Yes’

    ‘Triple talaq’

  • Dosa attraction

    ‘Don’t be inhuman, Ammalu. After all, Ammini is your friend my former colleague for thirty years. You could have given two dosas and sent her home happily’

    ‘I would have given her twenty dosas, not two. I would have, if necessary, gone to her house and delivered. But, she wants dosas to serve you, by her hand. That I can’t allow’

    ‘Why? What is wrong in that?’

    ‘If she serves, in order to encourage her serving, you will go on eating and tomorrow your blood sugar reading will sky-shoot’